you don't want to die, you want to live
this is a thought I had when I was younger
you know – that feeling you have when you look at what you have around you, and you are literally unsatisfied with everything
you overthink and you think that maybe life will be better if you are not around anymore
but overthink more, and you start to find the root of it
the reason of your unhappiness is because life isn't the way you want it to be
you are unhappy at how life currently is, not at life in general
if you change your life for the better, you will most likely feel better about it too
then it becomes clear
you don't want to die, you want to live
you don't want your life to be over. you just want the shitty parts to be gone
and that's what you should do
remove the parts you don't want, slowly
make more for new happenings to enter. and if you don't like them, remove the new ones too
until you are left with a life you somewhat like, eventually
and then go from there
really needed this atm😭😭
This timing could not have been any better. Thank you so much. This meant the world to read.
This.
I was in a really bad head space this past Sunday. I wondered what it would be like to no longer exist. To end it all on that Sunday afternoon. But I reached out. I told someone to come sit with me, talk with me, until the feeling passed. It helped. I said “I don’t want to die. I just wanted to stop hurting. This hurts so much and I want it to stop.” Thank you for sharing these words. I needed them today.
You’ll realize that sometimes wanting for the whole thing to end and to just disappear in the unknown is just a side effect of all the things that are hurting you right now.
Earlier, I had my mom nagged me about having my meals in a really shitty sched and just nagging(ly) asked if ‘I wanna die?’.
And, Ron, I almost said ‘yes’ bec I am still bothered and hurt of all the things I am overthinking at the moment. I’m glad I didn’t say it (1) I definitely don’t want to hurt her and (2) after sitting down on my thoughts, I realize I still want to see the better days ahead; I want to feel that heartfelt joy once more when this storm finally passed; no, I don’t want to die. I want to live. ❤️✨
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